She dreams of escaping. Of vanishing to a faraway land. Where fairies and gnomes rule the earth, where flying isnt merely a fantasy. For where the forgotten find solace, and where its home for the lost. The haven where tears are merely a prelude to rain, the hideaway abode.

you're so cruel.
it makes me wanna cry.

save me back to top?

okay okay.
since this post was DEMANDED
by my friend of 12 years bjorn teo
here it is!
hahahahahahas.
see bjorn im so nice.
i bet u feel touched. awwwws
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this post is dedicated to ver
as DEMANDED by her.
hahahahahahs.
see im so nice.
awwws
arent you touched?
pooty pooty pooty (:
hehehes.
verine=spastic (u look spastically cute though)
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cause i wanna smile.
but its hard.
everything's falling apart.
im so tired i cant be bothered to catch the
fragments anymore.
forget it.
let everything crash.

stop playing with my mind
cause i think im starting to lose my senses
im lacking a direction
i cant remember anymore how to walk my life.
save me back to top?

distracted.
u make me lose all my concentration
STOP IT!
get out
dont be selfish.
arent you greedy?
didnt your mama ever teach u that u cant
have the best of both worlds?
u want me to forget everything?
and smile at you?
you gotta be kidding. back to top?

cause we are all selfish.

clash of the egos back to top?

you hurt me.
so why shld i give u a patronizing smile?

the tears you dun see
fallin magically down. back to top?

i tried to salvage it.
but i guess it wasnt meant to be.
maybe i really was holding you back.
so now i've become a sacrifice.
i miss your voice, your laughter and your comfort.
those eyes of yours used to bring me
uncontrollable laughter and joy.
but why is it that i now see nothing but sadness. back to top?

you just had to let me see that eh?
bastard.
u wanted to prove to me that you could do without me.
so fine, you've proven yourself.
you've made me upset.
YES! im upset. u happy?thanks for being such a pal.
i used to trust u.
i thought no one understood me like u did.
but i was wrong.
i hate that look on your face.
u disgust me.

i hate u.
i hate the way you make me feel. back to top?

dun worry.
we still love u all the same. back to top?

GOH CHIAT YI CRYSTAL
the girl who thinks that dry-cleaning
can be done with a washing machine.
and thinks that people in japan do their own dry cleaning!
hahahahahahas!
which is like so not possible.
firstly, if it can be done using a washing machine(which uses water)
it wouldnt be called DRY-cleaning
secondly, if it can be done at home, wouldnt people in singapore
do it themselves too?
hahahahahahs.
chiat yi is so gonna kill me.
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today was okayy.
nothing much lorhs.
but eddie n shilin are so funny!
like everytime i turn ard they would urm..
greet me with this ''sawadeeka'
and clasp their hand together.
wtf?!?
hahahahahahahahas..
so cute la.
and i realise im starting to pay attention to lessons.
lols.
slowly i guess.
no more dreaming and dozing.
hahahahas.
i actually took notes.
(:
oh and they went forbidden city today.
they better be careful.
the IMF is nearby.
hahahahahahas.
(:

really? i wont be naive anymore. back to top?

ytd, our class was visited by mr cockroach!!
hahahahs. it shared a seat with kiesha!
then it started running ard!
until mr lee joen yen
went 'haiiii...yahh!' and stomped on it.
*ouch* and out came all the cockroach juice.
hahahas.
and our sugarcane theory.
why u should never drink sugarcane.
1) you do not know what they add inside
2) you do not know how many zillion insects have crawled
over the sugarcane which they place over the floor.
3) cause they will grind the sugarcane and the cockroach
(which they did not notice sitting on the sugarcane)
voila! there u have it, the crushed sugarcane and cockroach
juice. just 20cents a cup.
while stocks last.
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what was i supposed to do?
act like nothing ever happened?
or act like it didnt matter?
im sorry, i cant do it. back to top?

today is the bloody last day of holidays
rahhss!
its not enough!
i demand more!!!
more!
hahas.
i finally asked mummy to sign the silly
report book.
and she gave me the 'why are ur marks so lousy'
kinda look.
and i replied with the sheepish smile.
hahahahs.
funny.
there's dance three times a week.
dance until the legs break.
lols, the things we do for syf.
all the sacrifices.
hahas.
oh! n i bought a pair of nike sneakers ytd.
hahahas. (:
whoopies.
mummy must be in a good mood or something.
or she ate something different.
hahahahas.
fiona u gotta thank me for introducing u
all the nice shows.
and helping u get glued to the tv.
hahahahahas.
i shall go watch youtube now
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hahas. brine demanded i write this
so yeah.
ver lives in a bubble.
ver lives in a bubble.
ver lives in a bubble.
ver lives in a bubble.
ver lives in a bubble.
ver lives in a bubble.
hahahahahas.
but we live in a greyland bubble.
lols.
where the sky is green,
the sea is pink,
the trees are orange
and the sand is purple.
lols.
that's the greyland bubble.
(:
i just realised this is the 123rd post. lols. back to top?

today after jep, went mcdonalds for lunch.
hahas. nice.
n we played with straws!!!
typical us.
this time we not only cut them up,
we also put them into a cup!
hahas.
the nicole n fiona pasta co.
nicole as the chairman, fiona as vice-chairman
and jiaen as mascot.
hahahas.
lamers.
so we filled up one cup just on straws!
lols.
cut into macaroni shaped pieces.
lols.
we still have spring onions and spaghetti.
lols.
then we 'o-ya-beh-ya-som' so see who is the unlucky one
to take the straws from the counter.
and fiona's friend really math fail.
she ask him to take straw he took like 12!?!
lols.
so daring.
yupp. like that.
hahas.
now the cup is with me.
completely filled.
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ytd was okayy.
nothing much.
just went sentosa to urm..play?
hahas. i mean what can you do at an overpriced tourist trap?
so kiesha shilin jonathan matthias keith kelvin played pool
while brine n i went suntanning.
hahas. though i doubt brine got much suntanning done.
hahas, since i buried close to 1/2 of her in sand.
lols. then we went back after more than 45 mins,
to find them still playing pool.
wow.
shilin was damn lucky.
hahas, free peanuts and 1 bottle of 7up.
lols.
and we ate ben and jerry's.
yum. (:
then after that we built a cuso6 and greyland wall.
hahahas.
so cool.
for dinner we went bugis cafe.
yupp. not bad, just waited too long for food.
and the air con was inhumane.
overall an okay dining experience
hahahas.
then.. we went home..
lols, duh!
the bus air con was like 0 degrees?!?
my hand were so numb i couldnt even sms.
sheesh.
i hate public transport. back to top?

today is confession day.
me kiesha and brine went to kfc.
there, we spent a whole 2 and a half hours
just on confessing and of course eating la.
so cool!
now i know a lot of stuff.
hehes.
n we were thinking about the funny moments
we had at our old seats.
awwww..
we laughed until the people sitting ard were looking
no, i mean STARING at us.
hahas.
and this cute boy was so urm.. cute?
hahas. cause me n kiesha were snapping straws
and he found it so amusing.
then his father copied us! hahahas.
so funny.
but we were really quite childish.
and keith so lame.
say wad julian wants to rape him.
lol! keith! get a life!
i doubt he has such bad taste!
lols.

tmr is sentosa day..
lols. lame!
hahahahahas.
but today i realized something!
that brine is really really lame!
i mean what is with all the rhetorical questions?
hahahahahahahahas!!!!
an example:
ver: cole! is my hair messy? here feels a little 'pong pong' lehs.
cole: where got? okay wad.
ver: [looks at reflection on window pane] got wad! like very 'pong'.
cole: *rolls eyes* its okay la! trust me.
ver: really mehs? okay lorh.
2 minutes later..............
ver: eh cole! i really think that my hair is pong here.
cole: *extremely exasperated* its fine!
ver: *senses irritation* [changes target]
ver: kiesha! is my hair okay?
kiesha: *gives weird look* its okay wad.
ver: *finally satisfied* orh. ok.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahs.
so funny!!!!
oh well. that is part of what we discussed today.
it is not only confession day but also pick out your flaws day.
yupp.
but its great laughing at them
hahahahas.
shilin! you dont know how much fun you missed out on.
we shall have another confession day
shilin you must take part too kayys?
give us a chance to laugh at you?
hahahahahas. back to top?

i forbid myself to cry
cause i will be strong.
yet when i think of the memories we had,
the tears just fall.
thanks for making me feel like you cared
for i really trusted you.
i thought you were the one friend who i could rely on.
i was wrong.
i had faith in you
but you left me disappointed.


tattered and torn rag doll
i miss you.














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we're finished.
there's no turning back.
the laughter that was once present
has faded. only to be filled by awkward silence
and cool confident replies.
no more endless giggles and laughter.
its over.
thanks man. back to top?

im sorry ver.
i really thought u were gonna study with kimwei.
so i din ask u to go mac with us.
sorry la.
):
i noe u felt unloved.
awww..
SORRY BRINE (: back to top?

i wanna run away with you.
to some place where no one will know our faces.
some land where i am an individual.
un-manipulated.
so ver, take me away. back to top?