She dreams of escaping. Of vanishing to a faraway land. Where fairies and gnomes rule the earth, where flying isnt merely a fantasy. For where the forgotten find solace, and where its home for the lost. The haven where tears are merely a prelude to rain, the hideaway abode.

aft reading ur words..
i dunnoe wad to say..
not sure wether to call u a wimp..
or to call u smart..
mayb frenship realli is a hinderence..
but for tis frenship..
i will peservere..
cuz i tink its worth it..
i wont let a frenship fade away..
i wont let a fren drift away..
im doin tis cuz u mean sumthing to me..
but if tt is realli wad u tink..
n u dun mind it fading..
then nth i do will help..
nth i say will work..
if self denial is wad u want..
i hav no say..
mayb frens r juz like toilet paper..
use n throw..
but i cant do it..
cuz u r a piece of mai lyfe..
it's like a puzzle piece..
incomplete without ya..
mayb sumdae u shld look back..
n rmb the times..
it's realli so tiring..
but i'll get through it..
cuz i noe u r worth
me making the sacrifice..
im not like ya...
living in a fantasy is juz escaping..
sumday..the truth will catch up wif u..
u cant juz kip on running n running..
i treasure u cuz u r mai fren..
i wan u back cuz i need u back..
lyfe is incomplete without u there for me..
**
frenz are angels to me..
n so are u..(queen angel) :p

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im sinking soo fast in here..
i cant see..
i cant breathe..
i knew it was a mistake right from the beginning..
yet i cant help falling in..
i keep tellin myself to wake up..
yet my heart doesnt want to..
i wish sumdae u wld look back..
tts my only wish..
is ur face realli tt impt to u..
or are u juz a wimp..
are u lying to me..
or is tt realli wad u think..
your actions are so hypocritical..
wad do u xpect me to blieve..
i try to erase tt memory..
but it juz keeps flooding back..
am i reallt tt shallow to u..
u say i dun spare a thought for others..
arent u too soft..
sometimes i agree wif u..
but sumtimes the other side takes over me..
call me selfish..
but arent we all like tt?
are u realli tt naive to think tt evryone is an angel?
my sacarsm and insults are my form of self defence..
they are my cave and shelter from the harsh elements..
to u i am a loser..
u are the queen..
u call the shots..
i follow the orders..
if i did not respect ur decision..
i wld hav done more than wad u see now..
be less mean u say..
i try..
u say it's easy..
to me it's a chore and a hinderence..
im suffering inside..
where are u when i need a
when i need a shoulder to cry on?
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today is the day i regain my freedom completely..but sumthing tells me im gonna lose it again tml after i get my results..sighx..hmmm..31st goin japan muz think of mee hor!! haha..nightmares of my laughter mayb..wan me to buy anything my say arhx..hey baoee..cant buy lotte for u liaox..mr lam soo strict bout such thingies..nvm lar..i buy u n brendy some sweets lar okay?? cute cute one larx..to match cute cute u..i nvr knew tt there was so much preparation involved..i guess it's nt juz a holiday bahx..n it's amazing..the town can even change name..haha..and now we are goin universal studios too!! and oso coming back s'pore 1 day later..woohoo. we are given 1 free day in tokyo.. hiaz..im gonna die..no gcyc in homestay..oh no! im gonna die wif huimin..blahx..wad can i say..middle of the nite no one tu talk to..n i certainly hav NTH to talk to huimin about..or to put it simply..NTH i want to let her noe..call me tactful..but tts juz the way it is..i tink in klass tml there wld nt be any "tsunamis"...i doubt many ppl in klass are tt concerned abt studies to tt extent of crying bahx..but in 2e there definetely wld be typhoons, tsunamis, tornadoes..haha..im gonna bring a big pail to store gcyc's tears and process it through desalination to produce drinking water..haha..my creativity nvr fails me.. hey liling, the scenery there is "wonderful"!! pity it wld be gone..sighx..sad case..nvm..my toilet bowl is soo niceeee..woooohoooo..ma tong..anyway..tts all bahx..nth else tt i wanna reveal.. back to top?

wheeeeeee...im here again..tuday is the day i regain my freedom..woohoo..but oso kinda sian bah..for the 1st time in a very long time, i din finish my math paper..shit.. there goes my a1..now can only pray for the best tt my paper 2 score well then at least gt chance..the paper siao one lorx..so may questions yt only 1 hour..is time realli so precious? bwahahahahahaha..im freaking out here..ive gt a gut feeling im going panel..shit! wahahahaha..he realli very shuai!! bao..yeah rite? hor hor..hmmmm wad day is 17 june arhx? *hints hints*..haha..u noe lar..some occasion to "celebrate"..haha..thank god i 14 june return frm japan liaox..oh yeah! im goin japan..oh yeah! =) im gonna shop..blabx..juz now went j8 wif bao mumu n debbie..bao lost her wallet but found it at mac..2nd time liaox..laz time at tt mama shop..then laz time go j8 lost tt nike shoe keychain..advice to bao: dun go j8 wif tt wallet..it's BAD LUCK!! hahaha...tml still gt d&t then wed art..nvm lar..hiaz..crystal..its nt tt lorx..dun u tink ur thinking is too stereotypical..i dun see wads the big deal about it..and anyway we haven gone out wearing home clothes for quite a while..wad do u noe? dun u tink we haven been talking tt much to make such judgemental comments? sometimes i dunno wad to say to u..u talk like u haven been slacking..n y are u so decisive at such a point..come on ..it's only may..u haven even seen ur results yt u hav already kept ur options closed..anyway..lets nt bring tis topic up again..i dun wan our frenship to b affected by tis..are we cool about it? back to top?

so shuai!!! wad can i say..so shuai!!!! 1 simple word..SHUAI..hahahahahahaha..speechless..im so totally gaga..if u noe wad i mean baoz n liling..woohooooo..shuai!! gagagagagagagaga..hahahaahaha..im nuts..read my blog n u will contract my disease..the siao! disease..tuday went to gcyc hse..so fun..watch ju on..then i tell wx tonite i wld go n find her..i shall go haunt her..climb up her window like the ju on person..but i shortcut..i take lift until 26 floor then start to climb..she want me to bring haagen das macadamia ice cream, chocolate sauce, spoon, chopped almonds go her house at 2am for supper..haha..then i was my usual pervetic self..bringing laughter tu everyone..haha..sound like sum professional clown..tzu ling wo ai ni!!! he is soooooooooooooo shuai!! gagagagagagagagagagagaga..OMG! hahahahahahahaha..kk..tts all im revealing..guess urself..he is so SHUAIIII... back to top?

tuday hav compo exam worx..i tink my compo totallie sux..i wrote sum crap..5 PAGES...laz minute add dunnoe wad "drugs became a form of catharsis for me" wad total crap..i crapped so much that i did not hav enough time to rite my report..shit..fucking hell..arghxxxxxxxxxx..im so going bonkers..well at least sumthing gd happened..well but tts 4 me tu noe n 4 u tu find out..it realli made my day..so happieee..wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..im nuts....haha...bought mummie's day prezzie at j8..bought a top 4 her..well tts all the crap im sharing..byee..tzuling wo ai ni!! back to top?